I’ve been in denial for months. For starters, Lil Z has been eating dairy for a couple years now with no issues, or at least that is what I thought. But for a while now months, he’s been complaining that his stomach hurts. Well, he’s gluten free. He’s peanut free. Other than having a few foods with soybean oil, he’s soy free. The kid won’t eat eggs or many breads that have eggs (because he’s picky or has oral aversions caused by the pain that those foods used to cause him – I am not really sure). But he does eat dairy. Not in large quantities – he won’t eat much ice cream. He hates yogurt, and he’s never even tried cows milk.
With that said, Lil Z has had maybe five solid stools his entire life. In fact, he often has diarrhea three or four times a day. I thought that is just how his GI tract worked. But, he continues to have the allergy ring I discussed in a previous post, and until I did that post, I didn’t know that was a sign of an allergy/intolerance. I thought Z just had a yeast problem.
But there is one difference I have noticed with Manimal: He does have solid stools as long as he is soy and dairy free. After the Tootsie Roll incident at Easter Manimal’s GI reaction proved that he cannot have dairy and soy. But finally after four days dairy and soy free, he is back to normal.
So what I am saying is that I think dairy is still bothering Lil Z, and I just don’t want to fight with him over his two favorite foods: quesadillas and Cheetos. The kid eats those a lot. In fact, he would only eat those two foods if we would let him. And he is already on such a restricted diet that I feel mean. But, I need to get over it, and be a good mom and make sure dairy is not still bothering him.
And with that said, I need to get over my denial and face the facts that I may have celiac disease myself. No, I don’t have GI issues. I do have Hashimoto’s, an autoimmune thyroid disease. And for the last couple of years I have read that many people with autoimmune thyroid diseases should be screened for celiac. Apparently, eating gluten when you have celiac can trigger thyroid diseases.
Well, I have known this, but I’ve been in denial. I’ve been ignoring the fact that I have a constant itchy rash on my hands that wont go away unless I continually rub it with steroid creams. Or no matter how perfect my thyroid levels are, my memory is not what it used to be, and I oftentimes have trouble retrieving simple vocabulary words (in fact, I just now had to pause and close my eyes to remember the word “steroid.” That is not normal, and I never used to be like that). I also can’t shake the fatigue or fogginess that come over me, even when my thyroid levels are correct. And the final straw – my brother’s daughter has celiac disease. It’s no longer an issue that is a curse from my husband’s family. It seems to be on my side, too.
I don’t want to be gluten free. Sure, I eat that way at home almost everyday and it’s really not that hard when you know what you are doing. But, when the hubs and I go out, I don’t want to be selective about where we eat. I don’t want to have to explain to my mom and others who “just don’t get it” why my kids (and now possibly me) can’t eat gluten. I don’t want to have to go to family functions where all the food is contaminated by my grandma’s pie crumbs. I just don’t want to do it. And I don’t want to eat gluten free pumpkin pie. I don’t care how great the gluten free crust is. It’s not the crust I grew up eating.
I know. It’s stupid, that a huge hangup is Pumpkin friggin’ pie. But I need to get over that . Because if I expect that from my children, the least I can do it make sure I am walking the talk. And with that said, I am getting tested tomorrow at 11 a.m.